As I was growing up I had too many confusing style phases. I was goth, headbanger, emo, visual kei, I wore all black clothes with cute thematics like ribbons and lace (don't have a name for that xD) and then I started to wear more colours because till that I only wore black and grey. Then my style became more feminine, with skinny jeans and cute tops - nothing special anyway.
Almost a year ago from now, I discovered Lolita Fashion. I started to thinking of becoming a Gothic Lolita and I bought some clothes actually. Interesting thing is I never worn it for real.
Then my tastes were moving into Sweet Lolita, but an OTT to be more specific.
It took me a while to buy something Sweet but now and then I actually bought some stuff: first a pink cardigan, hair accessories, jewellery and a pair of socks. I was, and I am now, very far away to have a complete outfit.
Recently I was prepared to buy my first Sweet Lolita dress, one of my dreamdresses. I had the money and the buyer, the only thing left was to make a deal. This buyer took more than a month to answer me but till then, I kept the money in my paypal account, waiting for her to answer.
The time was passing and I gave up checking the egl_comm_sales topic everyday. I was getting really frustrated. I ended up deleting the LJ's notification from my e-mail.
Last few days I felt like I wanted to know something new. I always loved all types of Japanese Street Style Fashion but Lolita was the only one I worked hard to know about. I ended up discovering an online store that sells Gyaru clothes. For my surprise, I loved it. It was very different from the Gyaru styles I am used to see and I really thought "I can use this everyday. It is comfortable, not very expensive and looks very cute." I fell in love with the frilly shorts and the fluffy shirts *-*
I went trough the site checking everything and putting some outfits together. I was totally seeing myself in that look, specially because since I started to save money for Lolita, my daily life wardrobe stayed basically the same - banal and non-adequate to my age and personal tastes. I needed to get some frills and pink clothes in my daily outfits !
I never wanted to stop buying Lolita. I love this fashion too much for that. It is more than clothes to me and sometimes I got really sad because I can't afford the dresses I want more frequently : / I thought too many times in quitting but I always ended up happy with small purchases like a simple pink ribbon that costed me 1 euro. You probably think it is silly but it is true...
I don't know what I am going to do yet. I really need to change my wardrobe because that clothes aren't my style and don't feet my body type any more.
After some reflection I decided to go ahead with the "Liz Lisa Style" and stop with Lolita for a while. I tought "I can restart with it when I have a job and my own money". The thing is I don't know if I can truly believe in that but is the only thing I can do right now.
About one hour ago, the girl who was selling the dress gave me an answer. "Really ? One month later ??". She said that she can do a good price for the dress and, common, it is my dream dress we are talking about! My head is just a mess right now...
I don't know if I buy the dress or I spend the money I saved in new clothes I can wear everyday...
I wrote a lot, didn't I ? I am not expecting for people to read this but I will be very happy if you do and leave me a comment about this. I just need some opinions and different points of view !